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December 26, 2009

Ok, the only other “blog” I’ve had was myspace… So I’m not exactly sure how to do this or what to say. If anyone could help make my blog more homey, that would be wonderful!

Alright… Down to the point: I’m 17 years old, with blonde hair and brown eyes. My boyfriend (i call him Bug) is my soulmate- I love him more than anyone. Out of every person I’ve met in my life, he is the only one that has listened to everything I’ve had to say, rather than caring more about his own feelings and problems.

I know it sounds selfish to say that right? But I don’t mean it to be bitchy…

In middle school, my best friend *Nina was awful. She was not a good friend to me and *Lexi, my other best friend. Nina would get mad over stupid little things, but if Lexi or I got mad at her for the same reason, Hell would literally break loose. The worst part about having her as my best friend in middle school, was that in middle school, you go through SO many changes and you need your friends to support you, and listen to your problems; to comfort you and give you advice on how to fix the situation. Well, Nina wasn’t like that. Her problems were more important than mine or Lexi’s… Yeah, ok, i can see that they SHOULD be, but it was more like her problems were the only ones that mattered… and her problems were very important to me. So in my three years of middle school, I was taught by my “best friend” that my problems arent worth speaking about and that I shouldn’t share whats on my heart, and what is upsetting me.

But my honeybee is different… he always listens to what is bothering me, no matter what it is, and he always encourages me to tell him exactly how I’m feeling. I love that about him. I wish everyone could have someone like him in their lives. He’s just incredible.

Sooo… yesterday was Christmas! I wasn’t very excited at all to be honest. I’m more excited now than I was yesterday before opening presents. But, I did get some good presents. J’Adore Dior perfume, Juicy Couture & Viva la Juicy perfume, DVR for my room, a heater for my room, thank God, gift cards and money. I love the perfume the most haha

Anyway, Christmas was good. Bug came with me to my grandma’s. It could have gone better… I really don’t like having little cousins anymore. My grandma used to be my best friend but now she’s busier with all of my other cousins that she barely ever calls or sees me unless I go to her house and visit.. and even then I call her to come over its actually really upsetting for me.

Which, brings me to another piece of my life: Where should I go to college? So far I’ve gotten into Ohio University and the University of Hawaii at Manoa. I’ve also applied to UKY too.. but I’m not sure where to go. I recently decided that I was going to Hawaii so that when i come back, hopefully my family will be happy to see me, and for once, I will have their attention… but probably not. My baby cousin and 5 year old cousin are more important to everyone…

I feel so selfish because that’s normally not me but that’s the realization I think I’ve come to and I can’t help but want attention from someone in my family… Is that too much to ask?

-B

*Lame, I know, but I changed the names in this post. Seeing as it’s my first time writing, I don’t know how comfortable I am being so open.. Sorry!

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